9 December 2024

I just realised why I always listening to music.

I realised that I don't want to be alone with my thoughts. I don't want to think. Because I keep thinking about the same problems. I think and think and think, but I can't find a solution.

Meanwhile, I spend hours listening to music. I am trying to avoid leaving myself alone. Even reading a book does not prevent me from thinking, on the contrary, it pushes me to think more.

It's a bit like, if I tell you not to think of an elephant, you will definitely think of an elephant. And if I constantly remind you not to think about an elephant, all you will do is think about an elephant all day long.

This is inevitable.

The song ‘Iris’ somehow helps me to get better.

"And I don't want the world to see me

Because I don't think they'll understand

When everything is made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am."

I tried to read a book (again)

I tried to watch a new series (again)

And I'm tired of finding myself in the same position.

—

Osman Kerem

25 October 2024