18 July 2025

For all this time, I’ve been trying to say in many different ways… the journey of my soul. I’ve never been good with words, however I’m good at remembering the lyrics. Such as this, this lines that you started to read. They were hoping to come to surface and somehow, they are rebirth by my keyboard. As always, I don’t even know where these “words” gonna take to us, together. Which direction are we going? Isn’t it a good question? Asking a good question is difficult. Answering a difficult question is something else. What makes a question difficult? The answer. The answer makes the question easy or not. If you know it, you know it. What is knowledge then? Knowledge. Remembering the things. The things.

I could tell you a very long story of how I started to play guitar with every fucking detail, but who cares. There you go, I started to play guitar. About a month ago, you learned that I have no longer a long hair. you are learning that I started playing right now. That’s it actually. Simplest and shortest as possible.

We born and die. Simple. But the details, oh the details, stories, emotions… maybe… maybe after all of these we can say we “lived”.

There is a meaning. There must be a meaning that the things we do and why we are here on this fucking pale blue dot.

I’ve been thinking. I’ve been thinking while wondering where to heading (I don’t even know when I do metaphor, anymore). I’m looking at the sky right now, such a beautiful weather. It’s dark blue, cloudy and drizzly. I’m not being sarcastic, I really like this weather. Silence. I like this.

I hate to start to new sentence with “I” but there are not many choices for me. This blog is about me. Even though I hate to use “I” in a sentence this is what it is.

I guess I’m using social media wrong. Because I don’t care if you even see what I share. Or read what I write on this blog. I’m not doing for you. I don’t even do it for myself. I don’t control these… these words. They wanted to come to surface as I said, here they are. Do you know why am I a night owl?

Osman Kerem

18/07/2025